What is a Mother to write

Here I have been, sitting in front of a blank screen, watching the curser tick. 
I know, and have known for weeks leading up to this week that it is up to me to write something in the newspaper for you. 
But what does a Mama write that is worthy? Where all I want to do is wish I was writing in celebration for your 21st. But I am sitting here trying to finding the words to write a remembrance piece because you have been gone now 6 years. 
How do I put in the 30 words or less what we feel? How much we miss you. How much we yearn to have you back.
On top of the day to to day stresses, throw in our home burning down 5 months, living out of a suitcase and not been able to get a good night's sleep in FOREVER due to having the images of you dying in my arms entering my mind when I try to drift off to the land of nod.
Sleep and night time are some of the hardest times. 
We are hurting. And always will be hurting and missing you. Even more so, knowing that your 21st would have been this coming Saturday. 
I love you so much, G. So much and forever.
Love, Mummy.